Racey Days

who are YOU!?

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 03:27:00 GMT

*cough-ineedtoupdate-cough*

dirty peruvians...

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 01:25:29 GMT

so i haven't updated in a while because those silly little men that somehow manage to by a jaguar with a sage ridge salary have blocked every concievable web site on the planet

so - being the fucking genius that i am - i finally realized i could just use a DIFFERENT computer

last week was the peru trip
where do i begin?
i think the one thing that i learned on that trip is that people rarely turn out to be who you initially think they are...funny how that work now isn't it...

some crazy shit happened in peru, CRAZY shit
but hey - shit happens
haha
im funny
....not...

peru was fucking amazing in terms of like edifying experiences - but socially it was like fucking weird i don't know
not what i was expecting would be putting it mildly
but its cool because the north carolina trip is coming up and im excited for that - that should be good
that should be something that i can enjoy socially as well
not that i didn't enjoy peru socially - it was just - fucking weird
i don't know
there are some people i thought i knew who surprised the fuck outta me
jesus - they could have at least given me a warning....

so the thing that blows about peru is the effing contamination of water or food or air or space and time or god knows what that made me and kelsey and natalie sick as hell
then it magically returned to me yesterday - in the states - and i was again vomiting all over the place (great visual) but at least i didn't have to brave school

tomorrow is community service day - thank god
i need a break from school work already and i haven't done any
apparently i have a knack for getting tired of things before they even begin
i joined track and it hasn't started yet - but i've already quit
wow im on a fuckin roll

im gonna go eat some chocolate and watch bullshit tv
fun fun fun

adios amigos

nobody reads the answers to these damn quizzes anyway...

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 07:37:36 GMT

hey - i got this thing from someone at camp...uhh...yeah...you know who you are...

Favorites:
*Salad dressing: Gerard's oil and vinegar

*Color of socks: white

*Favorite No.: 34

*Movie: Donnie Darko, A Clockwork Orange (BEST MOVIE EVER), The Great Race, A Shot in the Dark, Requiem for a dream
*Movies u cant stand: Troy (what the hell was that?? what, americans are so stupid now that we don't even know the story of the trojan war!?), those damn shreck movies, the notebook was crap, stepford wives was AWFUL, and i could go on and on and on

*food: chocolate anything, anything sweet or sugary, and im going through a major ceasar salad phase
*Day of the week: wednsday (the day before thursday), thursday (OC day, day before friday), friday (duh), saturday (duh)

*TV Show: daily show with jon stewart, desperate housewives (!!), bachlorette (my guilty pleasure), OC, Law & Order - SVU, old episodes of SNL or spoofs of Bush
*Least favorite Sport to watch: GOLF!

*Favorite drink: san pellegrino

*What color is your bedroom carpet? was white - but now its white with nail polish and coke stains

*Where do you see yourself in ten years?: in a big city in law school - working for the DNC

*What do you do when you're bored?: leave random messages on my friend's cell phones

*Most annoying thing?: rich people (why not me?), golf (rich people's elitist game), republicans, Bush, little cities, farm country, rural areas

*Best thing: liberals, chocolate, jon stewart, big cities, laughing about nonsensical inside jokes with cal and making fun of trish

*Bed time: in summer - 4:00 (isn't that insane? i am such a night person..) school - 10:00 to 11:00

*What's on your mouse pad?: mouse pad? do people still use those? that's so 90's...

*Favorite Board Game? space-opoly, clue

*Favorite smells?: vanilla, sage brush and pine trees right after a rain, the ocean

*Least favorite smells?: cherry stuff

*Worst feeling in the world: loneliness, when someone close to you is unhappy and you can't do anything to fix it, that feeling where you just want to die because you can't see the point in living anymore

*What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?: why god, why school? or on the weekend or summer - wow, i wasted the whole damn day sleeping

*How many rings before you answer the phone?: i never know where the phone is - but if i do i pick up it after the second ring at least - i like to look at caller id

This Or Thats
*Storms, scary or cool?: cool
*Is the glass half empty or half full?: half empty (sorry i can't help it, im a pessimist)

*Blanket /stuffed animal: stuffed animal - my red sparkly bear that i have had forever

*Dumper/dumpee: so far, dumper, never been dumpee...yet....
*Black/white: black
*Chocolate/vanilla: chocolate
*Silver/gold: gold
*Tobacco/alcohol: alcohol (but why aren't cigarettes on here, because i would choose those..)
*Hugs/kisses: hugs from friends, kisses from cute boys
*Coke/pepsi: coke, pepsi is too sweet
*Love/Social Life: love
*Are you outgoing?: depends upon who im around - im quiet around people that i don't like
*Are you fun?: duh!! no, i don't know...

*Do you consider yourself better than other people?: no
*Are you popular? is there such thing as popularity at sage?
*Flirty?: depends on the guy

*Pretty?: i dunno
*Do people tell you your pretty?: sometimes

*Do YOU think your perfect?: not even close
*are you negative: yep

*Best friend: cal, trish, car car, nat, val, hannah

*Hobbies: reading, watching the tivo, watching movies, watching lifetime movies (shh....)

*Do you like being around people: hell yeah
*Last Thing u said: "isn't that insane?"

*Last Person you talked to online: christopher colombus

*Last Person you hugged: trish
*Last Person you saw outside of home: cal - wait that was in my home...oh well...
*Last person you got e-mail from?: cal
Who:
*Do you argue the most with: my mom

*Is the most trustworthy: cal
*Makes you laugh the most: cal, my dad, trish, jon stewart, darrell hammond, dane cook, ron white
*Has the coolest parents: cal and trish!

*Has the coolest siblings: cal
In the last 24 hours have you ..
*Cried: no
*Been kissed: no

*Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yeah
*Talked to an ex: yep

*Talked to someone you have a crush on: no

*Had a serious talk: no
*Missed someone: absolutely
*Been in a fight?: yeah - my mother...

falling tears

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 20:42:25 GMT

why do i feel alone in a roomfull of people? is it because im misunderstood?
at school when i am surrounded by friends i feel like i just want to be alone
and then when i am at home - alone - i wish there was someone there for me
last night i became overwhelmed with loneliness - and i realized that i couldn't really be happy whether i was alone or not
the only person i can be happy around is cal
cal is the only person i know that i can be myself around - the one person who understands me
cal and i have this weird spiritual connection thing - im sure anyone who knows us has noticed - we finish each other's sentences and we don't have to say anything to know what the other is thinking - we share a brainwave, we're on the same wavelength
so the only time i would and should be happy is around cal - but instead i always just feel guilty around her
i know she doesn't want me to be unhappy - but its not my fault, there is no real reason for me to be so unhappy i suppose...i don't know...

this is the one time when im not completely sure what she is feeling
we go to each other for everything - and so when i call her crying and tell her im on the verge of suicide as usual, i wonder how she feels
i get the idea that she feels like even though she is the best friend ever and loves me and everything, that even she can't make me happy
but i know that that is so far from the truth
there is no real method to my madness, i can't control my mood and i don't know what triggers my unhappiness

even great news falls flat these days
i got a letter in the mail that said that i am a semi-finalist for the poetry contest that i entered, and they are going to publish me in a poetry book
but for some reason i don't effing care
that doesn't make my life worth living any more than anything else

im worried about the future
if i live alone when i am an adult - who is going to stop me from hurting myself? who will stop me from hurting others?

im sure that this is a normal adoslescent thing - but i have no idea who i am - and i don't think other people do eiter
im so different around different people
there are people that think im stupid - mostly people that i knew in eighth grade
i don't know why i give off such a ditzy vibe
is it because i can't hear jack shit? not my fault...
the other day i saw this kid named kevin something with bright red hair and freckles who i went to school with in eighth grade - he was playing a tennis came for galena
he said something, and - as usual - i had to say "what?" because i couldn't hear him
and he just laughed and was like "i see that liz hasn't changed at all"
and i was like fuck you
im not stupid
its not my fault that you don't enunciate when you fucking talk
doesn't mean im stupid - it just means that you are a fucking ass
god i hate people
all the kids i kne in eight grade must think that about me - that im a ditz
but they don't know me and they can all go to hell - because you know what? i don't conform like you do, i don't tailor myself to fit in - im just real
i don't act "cool" im just myself and if you think that im a ditz then i think that you are a fuckin imbecile
wow - what the hell is wrong with me?

is that how i appear towards everyone?
when im around cal we always get silly and i probably come off like a ditz - but i hate it when people act like that, like im stupid
fucking bastards - i think they're the stupid ones
you don't have to condescend to me - when i can't hear you could just repeat what you said instead of rolling your fucking eyes at me and just laughing

you know what? everyone can go to hell with their perfect hearing
you may be able to hear shit but at least im fucking preceptive and i can see reality
so you can go shove that one up your ass

i had it when people condescend to me
good god im sorry i can't fucking hear - its not my fault
maybe what you are saying is so effing stupid that my brain doesn't even find it worth decoding so i just don't hear you - maybe i just don't listen to people because they aren't worth listening to
but don't sit there and shout at me and act like im 90
i hate people

i think it would be really interesting to like take a poll and have everyone write down on a piece of paper what they think of liz
how i appear to different people
some people know me as the quiet one
some people know me as the really loud one
maybe its a red flag to people who know me as the quiet one - maybe im quiet around you for a reason, maybe im uncomfortable with you - probably for a reason
the only time you can probably see me as the real me is when im around cal - she is the only one who im comfortable to be myself around - and that is the only time when people really judge me

wow - so i guess today was the day that i had to vent
so anyway, yeah...people suck today...

i hate it when people act like they know me
because they don't
they have NO idea
i hope that people who think that i am a pushover and a ditz and someone who won't stand up for myself realize that i never forget anything - if someone pisses me off im not going to forget about it anytime soon
i can hold grudges for a long effing time
someday im going to burst and start screaming profanities at people in the hallway
wow - that would actually feel really good right now....damn....sounds good to me...

okay - so if you think you know me - tell me what you think of me - and ill correct you
then ill tell you what a fucking asshole you are
no just kidding
im not a bitch i swear
im just confused and i have low blood sugar right now
so im going to go eat something and don't worry - after i have some substance in me i won't bite your head off......or will i.....???

Conquering the unconquerable

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 19:14:50 GMT

so today my mother made a ridiculous proposal: that i finally face my paralyzing phobia and.....SWIM ACROSS THE ROCKS

that's right: she wants me to swim across the big, submerged rocks in the bay

i have this really bizarre phobia of large underwater rocks
rocks on land: no problem
little underwater rocks: whatever
large underwater rocks: scary as hell

i don't know why - but everytime i am swimming and i see a large rock just lurking there in the seabed i become paralyzed with fear
and this is not anything new, either
when i was 11 we went to australia for christmas vacation
we spent a few days in cairns - and it rained the entire time we were there
we stayed in a very cool hotel with like ten different pools
we went swimming despite the downpour because it was so hot - even in the rain
one of the pools was like a fake beach - they had sand and a little dock and they made it look like the ocean and the whole shabang
so my mom and i went swimming here and i went around and decided to jump off the dock in the pool
so my mom was already in the pool waiting for me to jump in and i ran and jumped and had a heart attack when i entered the water
i don't know why, but there were these huge fake rocks they had in the pool to make it look real and i was so scared of them that i started to freak out and hold onto my mom and we ended up evacuating the pool
so that was a wee bit strange but i totally forgot about the whole incident for a few years

but this whole fear is completely aggravated everytime we come to napili bay because there are huge underwater rocks everywhere out there - where i never go
so she decided that today we were going to conquer my fear and just go out and swim among the rocks
i, however, do no think that i am up for that....

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As i lose against my dreams...soma is lookin pretty good

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 07:13:27 GMT

Soma* is what they would take when hard times opened their eyes
Saw pain in a new way
High stakes for a few names
Racing against sunbeams
Losing against their dreams...

They tried it once and they liked it - they tried to hide it
Said, "I've been doing this 25 years"
But i'm not listening no more....
And their friends, they keep askin for more....
But that's it...

*Definition of Soma: "All the advantages of Christianity and alcohol; none of their defects." - from Brave New World by Aldous Huxley

Smile

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 07:18:36 GMT

Who needs Prozac when there is cookie dough in the refrigerator?

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 06:11:26 GMT

I hate you.

"The Girl" that haunts my nightmares

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 05:52:04 GMT

last night i had an utterly tramatizing dream....flashbacks of it have haunted me all day
i dreamt that "the girl" (you know who i'm talking about trish) kept coming over to my house and would never ever let me see cal
so i had a meltdown at the mall (which is odd because this actually happened to me a couple of weeks ago - the subconscious has a good memory) and i just started crying hysterically in one of the stores
i am such a psychopath
i am also such a hypochondriac
oh to be emotionally simple and carefree...
wouldn't it be lovely??
by the way, i have officially diagnosed myself with Borderline personality Disorder - look it up on the internet and if that doesn't sound exactly like me than you are the psychopath and you obviously don't know me very well so why the hell are you reading my journal?
so anyway yeah i think i'm BPD which explains a lot
its frightening to read something bland and techincal on the internet about a disease and to have it dawn on you that you are reading about yourself
good lord i envy people with normal cognitive processes haha and people who can control their emotional swings
its so scary in part because i have no idea who i am
im sure those who know me have seent his
sometimes im quiet and dark and moody
sometimes im bright and cheery and giggly
sometimes i have no self confidence
sometimes i am overly confident
sometimes i know exactly what i want
sometimes i have no idea what i want
some days i want to be a doctor - and other days a lawyer - and then some days a senator
i see everything in black and white which is the worst part
a prime example of this is school
i think that i am either very good in a subject or very bad
if i am mediocre at something i consequently determine that i am horrible at it (like math, im not THAT bad but i constantly convince myself and others that i am completely inept)
if i get one bad grade in a subject i decide that that is it - that i am horrible forever and always at that subject
its so frustrating but i can't help it
and worst of all is that i am the moodiest most emotional person every
im either up or down - there is no in between
im either ecstatic or on the verge of suicide
but what can i do??? its so hard for me to change the way i feel!
im so detached from reality sometimes. it's like, when im feeling so happy, i can never imagine why i would ever have flet sad in my life
and when i am depressed i wonder how i ever felt in the least bit content because the world is the worst place ever and there is no point in me living anymore
sometimes i feel like i have all of the love and support i could ask for and i feel like i have all the reason and people in the world to live for
other times i feel like there is no reason for me to live and no one would care if i slit my wrists on a sunday afternoon - no one would even notice i was gone on monday morning
i also overanalyze everything and everyone and all of their actions
i judge each person's actions independantly - if that makes sense - and don't take into account anything else they may have said or done that could have led to or caused something at a later time
im quick to anger and frustration - quick to sadness and depression - but quick to cheerfulness as well
the human brain is so confusing - how biologically fucked up to i have to be to feel like this?

anyway - on a lighter note
we went shopping today in lahaina and i bought lots of gifts for people and a few things for myself
i sent ten postcards today (!!) to my closest friends - and i actually realized i have a lot more to send before i leave
my cute boy was MIA today and i saw him nowhere
it rained all day which was lovely - it made it a good day for shopping and wasn't a day i would have rather spent on the beach
i saw the boy that i always thought was hot but found myself loathing the sight of him today
i don't know why
i just hated him - for being there - for being around me - it was so strange - i just couldn't stand him all of a sudden
how do i have friends? how do they stand to be around me when i am so emotionally jacked up?
so that was a pretty random rush of hatred that i had today - towards someone i have never spoken to before in my life

last night i did not sleep at all because i was freezing (which makes no sense considering this is maui and it was prefectly balmy outside all night)
instead i decided to listen to my iPOD, then realized it was broken
so i got out my cd played - to discover that there were no batteries
so then i spent a while scrounging around the room in search of some unused AA batteries
i found none
so i then took apart the remote control and used those batteries to power my cd player
after lsitening to my cd twice throught - nad still not feeling sleepy at all, i went into the bathroom and shut the door and turned on the light and read 150 pages of the 5th harry potter (which i am reading for the third time)
finally i fell asleep after listening to music once again in bed

nothing else really happened today - it was pretty uneventful
i am feeling that longass run we had yesterday in my thighs - i can hardly sit down or stand up - my quads feel like they have been through the ringer

im going to go to bed now - at like eight o'clock or seven o'clock or whatever because i did not sleep last night from 1:00 until 4:35

so i will leave you with a lovely post-christmas poem

so mele kelikimaka (sp??) (hawaiin for "merry christmas) and to all a good night

A Republican Night Before Christmas

'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the land,
not a critic was stirring, for stirring was banned.
A thousand brown prisoners, snug in their cells,
all held without charges or tinsel or bells;

And mamma was wrapped in the national flag,
while we sang "Where there's never a boast or a brag."
When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from my bed to see what was the matter.

Away to the TV I flew like a flash;
I then watched "Survivor" and reruns of "Mash."
The fireworks, exploding above the new snow,
gave a luster of objects to people below.

When what saw my wondering eyes in the flashes:
a miniature George Bush and eight tiny fascists!
Their jerseys were blue and said "WORLD DOMINATION";
I knew right away this was not just claymation.

More rapid than eagles the warlords they came,
as the little Bush whistled and called them by name:
"Now, Daschle! now, Ashcroft! Now Strom, don't relent!
On, Poindexter, Rumsfeld! on Henry and Trent!

To the top of the globe, while the crowd's at the mall,
now bomb away, bomb away, bomb away all!"
His sack had a war game for each girl and boy;
his pocket, four billion from just Illinois.

Far up on his high seat the driver did mount,
with more massive weapons than Kofi could count.
And then, I heard sounds from away off somewhere,
the booming of bombs that were bursting in air.

As I drew in my head, and was turning around,
down the chimney old Dick Cheney came with a bound.
He said not a word, nor disclosed his location;
he wiretapped my house in the name of the nation.

Then holding the strings of his little Bush puppet,
he went to the chimney and quickly rose up it.
The sleigh was still running, but Dick didn't hurry;
gas guzzlers, it seemed, were no longer a worry.

He popped the champagne and exclaimed as he served it,
"The world is now ours, and GOD DAMN, we deserve it!"

i need direction to perfection no no no no

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 06:16:23 GMT

so yesterday was christmas
i had a pretty uneventful christmas myself
we didn't do presents this year seeing as how we are here instead - and it was basically just no christmasy feeling
it's pretty hard for hawaii to feel christmasy - i mean there were lights and a weird blow up thing of santa in a hot air balloon, but at the beach it felt nothing like christmas
its almost as if it didn't happen this year
but we had a nice dinner last night at a restaurant called Roy's - and the manager was really hot
most notably, though, the chocolate soufflet was DIVINE - there aren't even words that can describe the utter perfection of this soufflet

so this morning i did something unthinkable and ridiculous and completely out of line for me - I WENT RUNNING
and it wasn't just a little short run (and remember, i haven't run in six months, since my last track competition of last year) my dad took my 6 MILES! WHAT IS THAT!?!? i didn't run all of it, though, DUH
when we got to the top of the endless vertical hill that we had to run up (which had the cute, innocent, and misleading name of "pineapple hill") my dad decided it was time for a little breaking and entering
so - when security wasn't looking - we climbed over the locked gate-fence thing and checked out the old rotting property of some rich hawaiian man
however, nothing could prepare me for the shock i was to recieve when i glanced over at a tree and saw, swinging in the breeze, a noose
yes that's right
a noose
hanging from the tree
swinging in the breeze
so anyway - that was pretty mch the dealbreaker right there
off the property we ran and back to the old beach for a quick dip in the sea - and a quick glance at the cute boy on the beach
the rest of the day was spent swimming and tanning and just lounging around recovering from my traumatizing removal from the world of lethargy into the unforgiving world of physical activity
nothing too fun here

my cute boy has pretty eyes though - and this is, in fact, a new development in my life
we keep making eye contact - which is always the funnest part of cute boys - the coy little looking and then looking away and then looking back that i have done countless time with countless boys in countless places
so we engaged in the old eye contact game and his eyes are so unbelievably sexy i don't even know what to do
and that's the real shocker right there considering i really have never liked brown eyes
im kind of an "anything but" kind of girl when it comes to brown eyes
but he has these brown eyes that are indescribable - they are very, very light brown and just beautiful
they say that eyes are the windows to the soul - and all i can say is....if that's true....i definitley want to get to know this boy

oh yeah - and i must add that i bamboozled a towel from the napili kai, and there towels are unbelievable!!! they are so soft and cushy and quite pretty, too
they are a cream color with "sea foam green" stipes
i made up that particular shade of green
does it sound convincing? i actually think that that quite accurately describes the color

there are chain smokers takin a drag directly above me as i type
the putrid smell is wafting in my window, mixed with the tropical smell of the ocean, and the hibiscus flowers
as much as i love tolerating people polluting my air in public places - these people are being ridiculous
they have been dropping their stray cigs and their cig butts onto our patio - along with their ash and a little red lighter (which, as any good pyro would, i confiscated)

well bill clinton - a man who i greatly admire and respect (even though *gasp* he had an affair, because no republican has ever done that *coughrudyguilianicough*, and god knows bush has never ever told a lie)
is on john stewart right now - so im going to go watch this good liberal and continue to remind myself that i am not the only liberal left
i am not
i am not....

merry post-christmas!! and happy belated hanukkah!! happy ramadaan and merry kwanzaa!!!

It started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this?

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 18:55:50 GMT

Yesterday was a glorious day
My cute boy who my mom and i have dubbed "white board" returned to see me, looking as beautiful as ever
we call him that because he skinboards and he has a white skinboard

yesterday keri and i were swimming and just minding our own business when this random guy swims up to us
he goes, "where are you guys from?"
keri and i were like "reno"
and i was like, "where are you from?"
and he was like, "canada"
and keri and i were like "ugh, we wish we lived in canada!! you guys have a great government up there"
and he said, "WHAT!?!? i HATE our government! it's so liberal! i wish we had a more conservative government."
and i was like, "are you crazy!?!? no you don't!!! you have no idea how lucky you are! we sent our president up to you a few weeks ago, is that what you really want??"
and he was like, "well, no, bush is a dick. but i still want a good conservative government."
so we started talking about how he was a conservative and we were liberals and he was shocked at us, and i was shocked at him, too
so he turns to me and goes, incredulously, "I don't understand. What do you want, like equal rights for all citizens of a country!?!?!?"
and i was like, "DUH"
and he was like, "you are such a communist"
and i was lile, "you are such an effing fascist"
hahahahahahaha!!!!! it feels good to call someone a fascist every once in a while!! it was lovely!! keri was like, "I can't take you anywhere liz!"
im such a liberal - and i love it!

so anyway, besides our fascist friend, nothing too excitig happened yesterday besides some really big waves and some really cute boys

we'll see what today holds for us out there on the beach

merry christmas eve!!!

i can't think of a title....

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 18:47:02 GMT

we went to see meet the fockers last night
it was hilarious - i loved it
gotta love dustin hoffman, but especially barbara streisand
i love that woman so much she is so incredible - such a good liberal
good for her

we went to dinner after the movie and had lots of fun looking at the way hot water boy
we drank unbelievable amounts of water last night so that he could keep coming back to our table and refilling our glasses
then we talked to him - well actually keri's parents talked to him and we listened and smiled haha - and he is from new zealand, hence the ultra sexy accent, and has friends in reno and is going back home in three weeks
so after dinner ker and i mustered the courage to go over to him and tell him that we hope he had a nice stay in america and we wished him a nice trip home and he said "it was really nice to meet you" (!!!!!!)
we were so excited!!! he said it was really nice to meet us!! yay!!!!!

so anyway i never did find my austin boy yesterday but that is okay
there were a lot of other boys
there was one boy who looked like jesse only a little bit different - and i thought that he was very hot
i was watching him skinboard and he was very good and it was so cute when he wiped out haha
and then there was this other boy that i have seen on the beach a couple of times before but i never really took any notice to him but he is staying right near us and actually now that i looked he was pretty damn cute
so ill have to look into that again today haha
and then there were the twins that were MIA yet again - but i WILL find them!

we saw kelly yesterday and i had a lot of fun with her
she is so amusing - she makes me giggle
she saw my cute dark handsome boy who is staying like two condoes down and commented on how cute she thought he was
poor kel had one embarassment after another yesterday
she decided to wear a strapless bathing suit into the huge waves - which was not such a good idea and she lost her top a number of times
she ended up borrowing one of my bathing suits because that situation was just not working out
we kept trying to look all sexy walking down the beach together - and then some big ass wave would come and sweep us away and we would look idiotic as usual
so then ker and kel and i had this genius idea that we would build a sand castle to end all sand castles
there is this one sand castle that some ambitious kids made the other day and it is huge and actuallly quite impressive and still there
so we decided we would try to one up that lame ass excuse for a sand castle
and we couldn't even build a wall
so we gave up on the sand castle idea and began to build a dolphin sculpture out of sand (not my idea)
needless to say that didn't really work out
so next we tried to build a crocodile or alligator - i don't know the difference - out of sand, and actually we were pretty successful - that is, until a huge wave came and swept it away
then kelly had to leave with her family so keri and i (after attempting a gecko and then a turtle) gave up on the sand sculptures and went boogie boarding
then keri left me to go for a hell of a swim with her parents and so i kind of just waded and hung out and tanned and watched the cute chicos

so that was my day in a nutshell

its raining, its pouring...

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 19:51:19 GMT

its raining like hell over here (in maui!!!) which pretty much means tihat there will be no tanning for me today
that's okay though, because no amount of rain could keep me from checking out the pretty boys on the beach - if there are any out there in this weather anyway - so im gonna do that later

this was supposed to be a dream diary , but honestly, my dreams are way to complex and numerous for me to sit here nad write them out everyday
and they are way weird, too
but there is one dream that i would like to record - because it stands out in my mind as one of hte most disturbing dreams i've had in a while
i was somewhere with austin and i was standing on a sidewalk behind him as he began crossing a road
a truck came barrelling along - and yeah, you guessed it, squashed him
it was inconcievably distrubing though!
i sat there and watched as austin bled to death in the middle of the road and i sank to my knees and started screaming and crying in agony and shock and pain and it sucked
i hope this isn't some sort of omen or premonition...

anyway, moving on to happier austin thoughts, i saw this kid on the beach yesterday afternoon as i was walking, in front of the Mauian
and guess what? that's right....he looked EXACTLY like austin
everywhere i go, i swear to god
so anyway this kid was damn hot and looked like austin and so i sat down on the beach in front of the seahouse restaurant in a good position where i could look at him and make it look like i was looking out on the ocean
so he and i kept making eye contact and he smiled at me and stuff and then he started running his fingers through his hair and it was so so so hot!
and then his dad (i think) was like, come on, let's go
and austin-look-a-like was like no, i want to sit out here a while longer
and his asshole of a father was like no let's go, now
and he was like fine and he was all pissed and then he left me
and i sat there for maybe 15 more minutes because i was very sad that he left - as this is the way all of my austin scenarios always play out
and then i got up and trudged back over to my side of the beach, and as i passed these drunk guys on the beach they yelled at me and i looked over and they said "happy holidays" with a hiccup and it made everything seem even more bleak

but that is okay because i will look for austin-look-a-like as i know where he is staying now

also, i found twins!
that is so hot
i didn't seem them yesterday, but the day before yesterday i found them on the beach and they were unbelievably hot
it was like a very hot guy, twice
so anyway, they were blonde and as i was staring at them for a very long time i noticed that one was slightly buffer than the other, and the other was slightly tanner
but both were equally sexy i suppose
they were so reckless, too, which was so endearing
they started to jump of the cliff that they have over by the napili surf haha
people were staring at them in astonishment as the flung themselves over the edge of the cliff into the sand, it was so hot
and then one of them went back into the ocean as the other began to shower
then the one in the ocean went up and joined his brother in the shower and began to wash the sand off his back
and that was like my fantasy right there
it was so crazy hot
two hot twins like showering together hahahaha
DAMN!
unfortunatley, they were nowhere to be found the next day
oh well - that is just my luck

this journal-turned-dream-diary is now just a catalogue of all of the boys i see

as it should be

anyway, there is also this boy who is staying about three condoes down from us
he is SO sexy
he is tall and dark and handsome, what more could i ask for?
he is tan, tall, dark hair, dark blue brooding eyes, and he is just the whole package
yesterday as i was reading on our patio he was out on his patio and he kept looking over
it was so hot
i love members of the male sex
well most of them anyway

and tonight keri and i are going to go out to dinner with her family and maybe david hoffman's family (?) and see this really cute waterboy who works at this restaurant
haha so ker and i are going to get all dressed up and go drink as much water as we can!
and then we are going to see Meet the Fockers
so that should be fun

donnie fowler is like my new favorite person
he's great
his dad is the former chair of the DNC during the golden days of president clinton - and he is running to be the new chair of the DNC
i hope he wins
he is so charming - he's a little white boy with a southern accent - he's a south carolina native
and - he is a fighter
the one thing that bothers me about my party sometimes is that we are not agressive enough about what we believe in
we let the republican party define who we are which is such bullshit
the conservatives aren't afraid to scream and yell and jump right into the mud slinging - whereas it seems that the democrats tend to be a little bit softer-spoken usually
its time for that to end
we need to fight for what we believe in, and we shouldn't be afraid to be vocal about it
its time to stop conceding, no way
and this is what donnie fowler is all about - being brazen and outspoken - but in a good way - and redefining our party ourselves - instead of letting the Values Party wrongly define it as usual

here is the letter that he wrote, from http://www.mydd.com/story/2004/11/30/122711/44

"The Democratic National Committee
Embracing the New Politics and Perfecting the Old
Donnie Fowler, Candidate for DNC Chairman / November 2004

In a time where America's progressive movement and the Democratic Party feel the pain of defeat, Democrats must reaffirm our soul and commit ourselves to the new politics while perfecting the old. Today's Democratic Party is the legacy of our nation's greatest accomplishments - the American Revolution, abolition of slavery, giving women the vote, the right to organize, winning two world wars, and the civil rights movement. Standing up for this tradition is the charge of the DNC and progressives everywhere.

Democrats must stand up for our beliefs and take risks. Democrats must be defiant in defeat. When we lie down, we get run over.

Democrats must cross the values threshold. Democrats love issues, but we must remind voters we have a soul before we convince them that our policies make sense.

Democrats must find new voters. To return to power, Democrats must maintain the loyalty of traditional Democrats and recognize that huge parts of the electorate have arrived, changed, or shifted in our country over the last forty years.

Democrats must remember that voters don't live in Washington. Conventional wisdom and an aristocracy of consultants have created a national party that has lost the handle on what is truly important to voters and what is really happening in their lives. Local people know better. Let them lead.

The Democratic Party must increase its communications capability. Democrats must communicate year round with voters where they live, through their local news outlets, and by using trusted local opinion leaders. Regional political and communications offices plus a true understanding of new media and new technologies are essential.

We must form a shadow government. The DNC should coordinate the Party's leadership, not just our congressional members but also our governors, party chairs, DNC members, and leading thinkers. The Democratic Party needs a single entity, acting as a clearinghouse, so that the resources and message of the progressive movement do not duplicate each other or directly conflict.

We must raise money. Continued fundraising success requires a message that attracts donations and proof that the money produces real results.

We must measure what we do, hold ourselves accountable, and review our progress. The DNC must perform more like a business by setting measurable goals, quantifying its progress, holding staff accountable, and reviewing its activities on a semi-annual basis.
- - -

Donnie Fowler has achieved a leading role in political and high technology circles through his work in Silicon Valley and at the Federal Communications Commission, service in the Clinton White House, and work on six presidential campaigns. He has advised dozens of companies, policymakers, public advocacy groups, and political campaigns on how to manage their media, policy, business development, & technology agendas.

Six Presidential Campaigns / Four Presidential Cycles
o Gephardt '87-'88, Jackson '88, Clinton/Gore '96, Gore/Lieberman '00 (National Field Director), Wesley Clark '03 (Campaign Manager), and Kerry/Edwards '04 (Michigan State Director)

Political and Campaign Work in Fourteen States on the Ground
o S.Carolina, Iowa, New Hampshire, Connecticut, West Virginia, Ohio, Michigan, Wyoming, California, Tennessee, Mississippi, Alabama, Florida, Virginia

Technology & Telecommunications Background
o Federal Communications Commission ('97-'99)
o TechNet, Silicon Valley ('01-'03)"

by the way

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 20:22:15 GMT

by the way - real quick because studyhall is almost over....the kid who plays andrew on desperate housewives looks a hell of a lot like austin

well he doesn't really look like him in the face
but they have like the same stature...and the same hair...and the same demeanor...and the same adorableness...
so now i think he's hot, of course

my life is pathetic
shh...

im going to go watch him on the tivo after school cuz i taped him last night
*sigh*

entry uno

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 19:44:02 GMT

okay - so as you all know i am a psychopath

jk jk

well, kind of...

anyway, since one of the side effects of my medicine is very very vivid dreams (you have no idea) and i have all of these brain issues, like chemnical imbalances and stuff, i have wacky dreams
i guess that comes with being mentally screwed up muahahaha

anyway - haha, ignore me, im in a good mood - cal had this muy brilliant idea - that i should keep a "dream diary"

this means that i record every dream that i have - although i don't think that really needed an explanation, seems pretty straightforward
you never know, though

so here goes: my first entry

last night i had the weirdest dream ever

i'll start at the beginning (always a good place to start)

so it started out during our english final - we were all in a classroom that wasn't at sage ridge and we were taking our finals
margot was there for some odd reason and i stopped writing my english essay in the middle of the final to get up and talked to her
so i sat on her lap and we started talking
then dr gaye came by and yelled at us so i got up and went over to talk to trisherson
so i sat on trisherson's lap and we talked for a while about the final
then dr gaye graded our finals - but i never got a chance to actually look at my grade - it was very strange

then everyone filed out of the classroom and onto a bus-train thing
it was kind of like those double decker buses in england, only it was like the top - without the bottom
so it was like the top of the double decker - only it was light blue - and on wheels
where do i get this stuff?

anyway - so let's see it was me, keri, kelsey, natalie, mat trachok (take that cal), tyler mcclain, david hoffman, and trisherson
then trisherson jumped off (yes, as we were moving) and that was the last i saw of her
for some odd reason cal wasn't in my dream - which was so strange because cal is in all my dreams

so anyway, we ended up having to eat stale pizza, and i refused to do it
but everyone else did

next thing we knew, the bus broke down
and then cleve showed up - with pack horses (don't ask)
we each had our own horsie and we put all of our luggage (which appeared out of nowhere) onto the horses - and we all had sleeping bags, by the way

so we were riding our pack horses through the woods after cleve, while one by one people started like disappearing out of my dream
we all ended up getting seperated, and pretty soon the group consisted of me, mat (during this whole time i kept thinking how jealous trish and cal were going to be when i told them this story - you guys know what i am talking about!), keri, david, tyler, and nat
then one by one our horses began to run away
pretty soon we reached this place that was a very steep, long, hill going down
so - since we didn't have horses anymore and all we had left was our sleeping bags and ourselves, we sat on our sleeping bags and sledded down the hill one by one
mat went first - and that was the last we saw of him
then went david and tyler - and they were gone too
then nat and keri and i all went at the same time - and we all managed to survive somehow

next thing we knew we were walking in minnesota, on our way to spanish camp
so nat and i were telling keri how much fun spanish camp was going to be - and what a blast we were all going to have there together
and keri was totally excited about it - and of course, nat and i were too
so finally we get on a yellow school bus with a bunch of other kids and guess what? yep, our luggage is back
so the bus is driving us to spanish camp - only its totally different than the real spanish camp (which is crazy, you know, cuz everything in my dreams are always VERY realistic...)
and anyway - apparently all of the different language camps met together this time - before going off into their seperate villages
so we met at this one house - and we walk into the open garage and guess who i see?
that's right (i know you saw this coming) austin and candy-bus-boy
so they are playing basketball together and austin and i make eye contact and then look away (that is so kindergarden but it was WAY hot anyway)
so i pull keri and nat into the corner and freak out about how austin actually came back to camp and how hot he looked and blahdy blah
so then we see cassie (or at least a cassie look-a-like)
so i start freaking out and i run over to her - but the girl is looking at me all weird
and her mother turns around and looks at me all weird too
and im like "cassie?"
and she's like, "no..."
and then so it turns out, just my luck, that that is austin's sister and his mother
so i was like oh, sorry, you look just like someone i know

so then we walk through the garage door and actually enter the house
and we see hannah
and we are freaking out because it is this whole reunion thing - and we put our stuff down in a room that is messy as hell - actually the WHOLE house is messy as hell
and we go and look for val
pretty soon it is time to leave for camp, without val who was MIA, and i realize that all of my stuff is gone
so i look EVERYWHERE in the messy-ass house and conclude that someone must have stolen it
so for some odd reason i enlist austin's mom to help me find it
so we look everywhere and i never turns up and that was it

the end

it was such a satisfying dream though - just this feeling of knowing that i got to see austin again
ugh i woke up and was like WTF? that wasn't real? no austin ever? damn it
i think my subconcious has an inkling that i might not see him again - but i won't let that happen
i will hunt him down damn it, if it's the last thin i do - mark my words...

in the field

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 21:28:44 GMT

well well

its been quite a while now, hasn't it?

i actually wrote a ver long entry yesterday and i accidentally deleted it because im retarded
it was so lovely too

oh well

im listening to the killers play in my head - have "in the field" stuck in my head right now

in the field, i remember, you were incredible
hey shut up
hey shut up
yeah

the killers are amazing
their new video for "mr brightside" is so incredible, its so different from what you usually see
of course, they are british, so that is why they are amazing, you know how kick ass those UKers are!

so anyway party tonight at trish's! woooo!!
that should be quite interesting! it will be mucho fun dancing with my trishey trisherson - we danced together like the whole night at reno high's homecoming - and it was a lot of fun - so we will do so again tonight i guess
and the band will be there which will be awesome - they are too hot for words
wow - i get to see joe woohoo

but trish invited like the whole school - which is weird - and i dunno cuz she is trish
she didn't want to - but she always feels like she has to do stuff like that
she invited like all the 9th graders - even the bitch who is so mean to her
its so sad
she is nice even to people who are openly and blatantly bitchy towards her
oh well
we are gonna hook her up with brian from the pizza place tonight so all will be well...hopefully...

driving is a huge responsibility...

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 00:35:55 GMT

yeah, so i practically killed us today

my mom and i were driving, well actually i was driving and my mom was sitting, and i was about to make a left turn
the light went green so i began to turn
all of a sudden there was screeching and my mom was screaming and i threw on the brakes and my mom and i got whiplash, and then there were cars honking at me and it sucked!

apparently, when making a left-hand turn at a green light you have to look to make sure no oncoming traffic is coming
i thought green light meant go! so i did! and i failed to acknowledge the truck that was coming at me, and he was probably wondering what the hell i was thinking

i am never driving again that was so scary
my life flashed before my eyes
driving IS a huge responsibility kids
you be careful now
no drinking andd driving
or speeding
or making left turns at a green light without looking

so tomorrow night cal and i are going to trish's to study (ha, yeah that'll happen)
and then on sunday we are going to church with trish's adorable little family
so that should be quite an experience

my mom flipped out and was like omg, they are going to try to save you!
and i was like don't worry mom, there is no chance in hell
and she was like, its against our family's morals to allow you to go to church, remember liz, you are heathen in your heart
i was like, don't worry mom, church will probably reaffirm my agnosticism

i watched a clockwork orange last night and that must be the most brilliant movie ever made
im incredibly impressed with stanley kubrick's work
he's a genius
a clockwork orange is my new favorite movie
its a commentary on society, politics, governmental corruption, adolescence, violence, and just stuff like that
its so amazing, i can't get over it
its even better than the shining, which is one of stanley kubrick's better works

i just read a james patterson book, 262 pages, in about an hour
i love those books, they are so silly and such dime store novels but it was a nice break from dr. gaye's whirlwind of intellectual material
and now i am reading for the fourth time the fourth harry potter
what a coincidence
i love that book
and i also just watched the third harry potter that just came out on tuesday

i saw it twice in theaters in june
its so good! alfonso cuaron directed it, and i love his work
he also did amores perros (i think) and y tu mama tambien, which is such an amazing
alfonso cuaron is a great director, but he is no stanley kubrick
no one is stanley kubrick except stanley kubrick
that was completely unecessary ^
oh and daniel radcliffe is getting muy good-looking these days i must add
so that was most definitley a plus
he is sure turning out to be a good looking kid, whith those broad shoulders and wow he has a nice body and that thick hair and the eyes and just the overall hotness

wow, okay, moving on
we are going to san francisco this weekend to celebrate my 16th birthday
sweet 16! yay!
cal and i are going and we are going to meet car car (my favorite liberal friend from berkely, the home of liberalism, god's country) my cousin blake who is way hot (can you say incest?) and some aunts and uncles and my sister and blahdy blah more people
so that is very exciting and shall be quite fun
we are going to do some hardcore shopping in san fran, at urban outfitters especially
and we are staying at the lovely fairmont hotel
im so excited! im giong to be in the same city as felipe, who lives there! ahhhh!! fe fe!

im going to go watch the hours now, which is one of my favorite moves of all time

its time for democrats to regain our dignity
we have more morals than those righteous right-wing bastards
and WE at least know what's right for the economy
for our international relationships, healthcare, civil rights, and the list goes on

i have to post this, by the way, because this is excellent:

12 reasons gays should NOT be able to marry (this IS sarcasm by the way...)

Homosexuality is not natural, much like eyeglasses, polyester, and birth control are not natural.

Heterosexual marriages are valid because they produce children. Infertile couples and old people cannot get legally married because the world needs more children.

Obviously gay parents will raise gay children because straight parents only raise straight children.

Straight marriage will be less meaningful, since Britney Spears's 55-hour just-for-fun marriage was meaningful.

Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and it hasn't changed at all: women are property, Blacks can't marry Whites, and divorce is illegal.

Gay marriage should be decided by the people, not the courts, because the majority-elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of minorities.

Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are always imposed on the entire country. That's why we only have one religion in America.

Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people makes you tall.

Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage license.

Children can never succeed without both male and female role models at home. That's why single parents are forbidden to raise children.

Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and we could never adapt to new social norms because we haven't adapted to cars or longer lifespans.

Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name are better, because a "separate but equal" institution is always constitutional. Separate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as separate marriages will for gays & lesbians.

from 12reasons.com

haha
take that!

okay i will leave you with that

Shove Your "Moral Values" Up Your Ass!!!!!!

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 17:23:17 GMT

These days, it seems like Republicans have patented “moral values”. In the months leading up to the election, the term “moral values” has been increasingly overused and exploited. No one else but the fundamentalist Christian conservatives seem to have any “moral values”. In my opinion, this is both false and hypocritical. I think the Republican Party’s emphasis on moral values was not at all a true or valid argument, put was just a ploy used in a narrow election to draw simple-minded voters over to the right side. In a country with a humongous population of members of the Christian faith, playing the “moral values” card was an easy way to gain the support of much of America. These days it seems that the “morals” of a president are more important to the average American than actual intelligence, capability, or attention to things such as the economic situation. Middle class Americans would rather be sure that their president is attending church, then feel sure that their president can aptly handle the economic circumstances that directly affect their families.
So according to the conservatives, exactly what are “moral values”? In the case of the election, “moral values” have been defined by a person or party’s stance on such issues as abortion, stem cell research, and gay marriage. If you are for any of those issues, you automatically are categorized as either, a heathen, a Satanist, or someone who is simply very misguided, and thus immoral, who just needs a little guidance from the Lord. Negative views on issues such as gay rights and abortion have also been called “family values.” So apparently, if you are for gay rights and abortion, then you must really hate families, too.
I fail to see where liberal morals end and conservative morals begin. Apparently Democrats, for being generally pro-choice, are “murderers”, and I won’t even get started on that, I’ll save that for another rant. And yet Bush launched an attack on a foreign country that killed thousands of innocent Iraqis and American soldiers. But Bush is still considered “moral” because he talks to Jesus and he wants to make it illegal for a woman to make any decisions regarding what she does with her own body.
So here is my question: if embryonic stem cell research is such an immoral thing to advocate, because it’s the murder of innocent potential people, then why aren’t Christian women lining up to save the poor embryos who are slated to die, why aren’t Christian women flooding research centers with offers to carry these poor embryos to term? It’s wrong to kill embryos, they’re people, too. Apparently a fertilized egg has just as many civil rights as its mother. We should not brutally murder embryos to better science, that’s ridiculous. We should instead let them live out happy, full lives in their Petri dish in the freezer.
The popular Republican definition of moral values seems to fall into the category of “family values” and/or “traditional values”. But both of those are pretty vague terms, and aren’t really defined well. How is it “Christian” to preemptively enter a war, without an exit strategy, and meanwhile watch thousands of Iraqis and Americans die as a result of the irresponsibility of our President and his cabinet? Whether or not people believe it, it is possible to be religious and liberal. Reverend Robert Edgar, a Reverend who is both Christian and liberal, said in an interview, “The religious right has successfully gotten out there shaping personal piety issues – civil unions, abortion – as almost the total content of “moral values”. And yet you can’t read the Old Testament without knowing that God was concerned about the environment, war and peace, poverty. God doesn’t want 45 million Americans without healthcare.”
In an article called “On Moral Values, It’s Blue in a Landslide”, New York Times writer Frank Rich said of an Ohio evangelical family, the Leslies, “The Leslies swear by “moral absolutes”, support a constitutional ban on same-sex marriage and mostly watch Fox News. Mr. Leslie has also watched his income drop from $55,000 to $35,000 since 2001, forcing himself, his wife and his three young children into the ranks of what he calls the “working poor”. Maybe by 2008 some Democrat will figure out how to persuade him that it might be a higher moral value to worry about the future of his own family than some gay family he hasn’t even met.”
Maybe Kerry’s campaign didn’t cater to the “morals” of Middle America, but maybe that’s good. People obviously have different ideas of what constitutes “morals”. There isn’t one set of morals that are right. People should take a step outside of themselves, and realize that if they don’t like something, they aren’t forced to do it, such as gay marriage or abortion. But they should let everyone else make their own decisions, not force everyone to conform to their religious-based definitions of morals. Just because the bible says something is wrong, or they think its wrong personally, doesn’t mean they have to impose those feelings on all others, and make it illegal for any American to do something that is against someone else’s “morals”. America was founded based on freedom of religion. If bible-huggers think that gay marriage should be outlawed because God said it was wrong in the bible, maybe they should keep that opinion to themselves. Remember, I know it sounds ridiculous, but not everyone in America is a Christian and believe it or not, we actually aren’t a theocracy….yet….

what is love? baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me no more...

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 05:40:57 GMT

as i sit hear listening to the theme song, "what is love?" from the Night at the Roxbury soundtrack (best movie ever!), i'm thinking to myself, "this is the newspaper article from hell"

i have honestly never had to work this hard on a newspaper article, and that is saying something considering a have put a lot of time and effort into my newspaper endeavors

its all paying off though! kristan brown, who currently holds the copy editor position, is graduating from sage ridge next year, and she wants me to take over her position! yay! liz is finally moving up the newspaper food chain! im' going to be on top of the newspaper heirarchy now

i just hope that the newspaper doesn't completely fall apart without the guidance of the seniors next year

but i won't let that happen. kristan is going to start training me next issue, so i should be prepared to take over her position and do her justice.

anyway, im writing about cross country and getting all nostalgic about running
im so proud of our team this year, they have kicked major ass! they're all recruting me to run again next year, but we'll see what happens...im acutally considering it...

HAVE I LOST MY MIND

duh
long time ago

OMG! the peppermint mochas have returned to starbucks! the peppermint mochas are a godsend! they are outrageously delicious, im going to have one (or two shhh) tomorrow after school when debate club meets to prepare our speeches for saturday's competition

the topic is prescription drugs, should it be legal for americans to buy prescription drugs from canada?
my personal opinion is that, hell yes americans should be allowed to buy prescription drugs from canada

but on saturday, my personal opinion is not going to do me any good

the OC was just one! it was muy sexy and muy dramatic of course
marissa made out with two different guys, Dj, ryan, then back to DJ within like 20 minutes
so that was hot
then summer and seth did their little summer seth fighting thing

and marissa's mom was a biotch as usual
typical OC
gotta love it...

k, spanish hw...chao!

the laws of physics do apply in england as well

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 02:07:18 GMT

i haven't updated in a while
since sunday
oh well
i think my excitement over this journal is fading

but i have to post this

this is a completely true story

i don't know exactly when, but there was a huge storm that blew throught britain
in a quaint neighborhood somewhere in england, there were many poplar trees
there was a man who lived in said neighborhood, and he had 3 trees in his backyard

before the storm hit...

the storm managed to actually uproot one of the trees and it flew off into the sunset
the other two were bent, and got stuck under the overhanging of the man's roof

a couple of days later, after the storm passed, the man became frustrated because no light was entering his bedroom window, because the trees bent over were blocking all sunlight from entering
the man couldn't reach the trees from this window, so he had a brilliant idea
he took his chainsaw outside, and braced himself against a gutter
he wrapped his arms around the first tree and began to saw off the part that was stuck under the overhanging
(you see it coming don't you?)
as soon as the tree was released, it sprung back up, and the man went flying

he was fuond in his neighbor's backyard
doctor's said that he broke his neck when the tree snapped up, and so he didn't even feel it when he hit the ground
miraculously he didn't die

and we americans are always the stupid ones, right?

ugh

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 02:36:53 GMT

i didn't really update this weekend because i had a pretty shitty couple of days
it turns out that i've been taking my meds in the morning - and according to my prescription im supposed to take them at night

whoops

well its been working great so far...but whatever...

so i trid to switch from morning to night
is tarted on thursday - when i took my pill at night
on friday morning i reminded myself not to take the meds, then come friday night i had totally forgotten about it
on saturday morning i didn't take the meds either, and i told myself that i must take them that night
guess what? yeah, i forgot
so this morning the meds had completely slipped my mind and i never really thought about it
consequently, i haven't taken my medicine since thursday

so without my meds i had an awful weekend

i was dizzy, nauseous (sp?), angry, and depressed
i cried all weekend for no reason, and then i would scream about nothing
i did not homework, no newspaper articles, no nothing
i just sat around and wallowed in whatever was bothering me
and i must admit - i was kind of scared
but i found the root of the problem - and i can fix it now
i decided to just resume taking the meds in the morning - its been working really well like that for the past few months

so on a higher note - friday night was kinda fun
i distributed newspapers with david hoffman, ian norman, mario, and trish
we went to three shopping centers and spread the sage ridge love there
since we had bourght along a few extra newpapers, and by this i mean we greatly overestimated the amount we would need, the walmart shopping center is now full of The Ridge
i mean, they are EVERYWHERE
our paper graced the tabletops of every table in the entire shopping center - which is quie a feat
so if you find yourself at walmart - keep a look out for our newspaper - in case you find one, or one finds you

oh - and saturday night was also our volleyball end of season party
trish had led brian, who she works with at nick and willies, on all week about the party, telling him to stop by
then the day of, she retracted the invite and told him not to come

trish preplexes me, considering brian from nick and willies is muy sexy and trish loves him to death
he is a major trish crush

so cal and i, being the best friends a girl cold ask for that we are, decided to waste a good 20 minutes of the party to trek across the highway in the freezing cold weather to nick and willies and convince old brian that trish did, despite the mixed messages and un-invite, want him to come

so he changed his plans for us (or for trish) and made is possible for him to stop by the party after work
when we finally got home - after getting lost and such - brian called trish at her house to make sure it was okay

trish was completely unaware that we had gone
so she made him un-change his plans and not come to the party once again
and she was pissed at us

trish never ceases to amaze me

well im going to go work on the chem lab from hell

buenas noches

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 19:57:55 GMT

i read on the BBC that 40% of americans are born-agains evangelicals or whatever
im scared
no wonder we elected bush

i love how england looks at we americans like we are another species - its hysterical
whenever i read articles on the bbc about america - its like the were studying us in our natural habitats and they are reporting our behaviors hahaha

they don't understand how we can be as stupid as we appear - and im actually with them on that one
i don't know where these 39.5 million americans who voted for bush came from quite frankly...but i think id rather not know...

im just going to move to berkely - i would fit right in there

life as we know it was pretty good last night - although i would have liked to have seen more of jon foster lol
next time, though
next week's episode looks way hot!

dino and jonathan are muy sexy, too, so that i a plus

the OC was last night! season premiere! a tad bit dissappointing - but i don't know why
maybe i was just expecting too much

seth was witty as usual - and i still love him to death
marissa was overly dramatic and the fact that she hit the bottle and then made an anonymous phone call to ryan (who, of course, could tell who it was by the breathing)
oh and teresa knew who was calling, by the way, also, even though all ryan ever said was "hello?"

oh well
i still liked it - a girl needs to watch something mind-numblingly stupid every once in a while

the death cab concert is this weekend
im excited as hell! wooo!! death cab kicks ass! and pretty girls make graves is gonna be there too - they are also a great band

and walker is coming to town for the concert - so this is exciting

lets see - who all is going? walker, cal, mario, and chris so far

nothing interesting to say - except that my love for jon foster has grown - if that is possible

wooo

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 01:33:09 GMT

tonight should be a good night

1) i don't have much homework - and this is a rare blessing
in fact, i've done it all except for some english questions that i need to answer

2) SEASON PREMIERE OF THE OC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I've been waiting since last like may or something for the OC to re-enter my life! although the season finale was dispicable, im willing to forgive and forget. so the slate is clean and we'll have a fresh new start.
i can't help but wonder if seth ever got to fiji on his little dingy
somehow i doubt it...
as lame as that was, im still looking forward to seeing seth
seth is the muy sexy and hilarious one
but they're all muy sexy - ryan and luke and all the guys included (save richard, or whatever his name is)
even seth's dad is hot! but seth is the hysterical sarcastic and witty one, so im looking forward to his silly puns and such

3) life as we know it!!!!!!!!
2 words: Jon Foster

jon foster is a god!!! he's the hot brooding one from murder in greenwich (see previous entries)
the show is about jon foster and his two best friends, who are almost as hot as he is!!! they are muy sexy, too!!
but jon's character on the show, ben, hooks up with his 23 year-old english teacher! how hot is that??

so im muy excited to watch that show tonight!!

is it possible to post picture in this thing?

sad day

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 03:06:54 GMT

its a sad day today for the american people - or at least for the intelligent american people...

looks like we get another four years of the same bs from bush

a couple of weeks before the election the political leader in iran - whose name i can't for the life of me spell - said that if the american people re-elect bush, then we prove to the rest of the world that we are indeed as ignorant as we appear to them

well - we proved them all right...

i honestly am pretty much in shock that bush won antoher term - ummm, excuse me, but exactly where have the american people been for the last four years?

oh wait - no, "moral values" always beat out actual intelligence
duh, liz
how could you forget?

well - im going to go wallow in the utter stupidity of the american people now....and then im moving to france and changing my name

that way i can sit in a little cafe in paris sipping coffee with an olivier martinez look-alike, and then i will casually mutter "what zee hell is wrong wiz zose ahmerikhans??"

election day

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 00:02:29 GMT

im taking a break from throwing up the contents of my stomach - to say that kerry better win

or else i will throw up (but probably not just because bush won)